Lungs frozen
Eyes stagnant
Tears won't stop
Part of me is missing
Another part burns
Pain pulses through my body
Sorrow comes, refuses to leave
Sitting in anguish
Utterly restless
Words of anger
Poems of hurt
My only love, always hurting
Cuts me deeper, yet my fault
Simply friends and I need you
We lie in fury
Nothing matters
My stomach twists
My heart stalls and withers
My mind doesn't calm
I sit here alone,
in a hope that you still love me.

Smiles a fluorescent wind
Eyes of blue smoke
Floats around my existence, not knowing
Looks my way rarely, yet peers
I see him, my love box forgets rhythm
Lungs aching, needing to inhale him
Touch I'll never know, but yearn
An aroma of sweet sincerity fades fast
Sounds of a melody, consumed by tranquility
On my toes, I await our next encounter
Knows nothing of my obsession
I sit utterly deficient in his presence

A virus eating all life
Like an angry metal song nobody cares for but the artist
Tragedy that people are ashamed of
Blares word of my non-existing use
Mistakes produce miracles, cares nothing for
Carved my child out of its safe place
Shoves hate inside affection, keeps me isolated
No reality to be claimed
Swings wrath in a rage of fists
Burns my soul with an unspoken voice
Feels nothing but whirling delusions of inhaled poison
Waves of unwanting come, yet never leave
Made me the greatest shield I can carry